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[Filter: Franelcrew]

The good news is that at least we're still alive.

More importantly, Dian now has a ... presence in my head, and he's very unhappy.

Even more importantly, we can't leave the Citadel until July 31st. No way of leaving until then, apparently. I can't think of why Danu would lie about that. I'm surprised she even gave us a date.
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[Filter: Amaeyra]

There are things I need to tell you.

Over the past few days, I've learned a lot about the world. I have answers to some of the questions I've lived with for ten years. But yet, that's not really why I feel the need to tell you ...

The Moon Festival is in two days. This year's eclipse might be the last time the spell ... pulls me out of this world, because I can't think of what else we have to do. We've completed the tasks the Clerics set for us, and I don't know to what end this last year has been for. I don't know what it means for us to have passed their test. And, knowing what I know ... I don't know if I will have the chance to write again when the Moon Festival is over. That is something you have to know, but that is not quite what I have to say either.

Amaeyra, I ...

I never will return to Franel. I never will bring Franel back, to a world where its last members died thousands of years ago. Franel can never be my future. I've finally accepted that now, even though it feels like I've cut off a piece of myself to do it. For the first time in my life, Franel has no part in the picture of what my future should be. The future I picture now, the days past this Moon Festival that I have to hold on to, is ... I've told you about the mists in Kilia. How it deters the notion of travelling, how it draws the unsuspecting away from the roads and loses them to the forest by fooling your mind into seeing something you want to follow.

I saw you. It was difficult to look away from a vision with your face, your eyes, your smile. I had to take her in, even knowing that she wasn't really you. You would never ask me to stop. You would never tell me to give up, forget everything and stay with you. I haven't seen you in such a long time. I wish I could just tell you everything with you, the real you, at my side, instead of having to express it all in writing.

Amaeyra, I want ...
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[Filter: Kail and Celeste]

I can't say that the last few days have been very comforting, despite knowing a lot more than we have ever had about what the last ten years have been for. I keep thinking about all the times we had flashes of memories that weren't ours. The more we learn, the more those memories start making sense, the more ... enormous it feels. All the secrets, all the history, all the chaos that might result if the Clerics are pushed one way or another. The Moon Festival feels like an ending.

Do you remember those messages we used to get? About how we did not exist?
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[Filter: Franelcrew]

Dragons, it did work, just as Celeste thought it would, but I never thought fixing the cookpot would mean ... I know we all joked about the cookpot, but this thing is really less innocuous than the poem suggests. There really is no bringing her back, is there? Because we'll ... need to tell the boys. And give her a proper burial. The poor woman.

Are you certain you're all right, Lauren?
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[Filter: Private]

It feels wrong to think about leaving, considering the role we played in the damage the village has gone through, but we have less and less time to linger, less time to savour the relief of somehow surviving near impossible odds. We have to have recovered the last of the treasures and be in Taln by the next Moon Festival, and that is three months away. Perhaps the villagers would prefer us to leave them to their grief, to heal themselves from years of terror, and to stay longer would be like gawking over an accident. Besides, I can't wait to see how time has warped a magical cookpot. It would be too much to hope that it has simply stopped working.

Again, the question of what the Clerics want with all of this remains. The most charitable explanation is that they think to test our worth by using us to clean up and recover priceless artifacts for the sake of their country's stability, but that seems rather out of character. No, I think they want to see if the vessels that carry their brothers' and sister's souls will obey. I think, if I knew my long-dead brothers and sister could be returned to my side, and I was not limited by what is earthly possible, there would be little I would not do to make that true.

I hate that there is so little we can do to resist. I hate that we are just following the breadcrumbs they've laid out for us. I dread that we really are dooming this world by doing exactly what they wish.
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[Filter: Franelcrew + Doolin]

Searlait may be licking her wounds now, but we don't have much time, and what time we have we need to put to use. She's bound to attack us. To put it bluntly, we need to be ready to fight a dragon.

Firstly, we need to train. Putting ourselves face to face in battle with a live dragon would be best, if Prudence and Patience are willing. We can form strategies after some initial trials. Saoirse, Coinin, Iseult and Caoimhe, I need the four of you to lead a meeting with the rest of the village. if they want to fight or help in any way, we'll find something they can do. We will need all the hands we can get. We'll also need to find a way to shelter the non-fighters amng them as best we can.

Have we found more about the ... it's hard to call them monsters, knowing who they are. Have you found out more about our captive, Nessa? And have we found a way to enter the well? Imagine, we came here under the pretense of learning about the thing, and now, here we are.
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[Filter: Franelcrew and Doolin]

That dragon-shape in the sky looks to be heading towards the town square. I'm sure it's grey. At least, it's definitely not red. Its head seems to be ... drooping, as if it's tired. Its wings are flapping weakly, and they're down its body is swaying like a --

Dragons, Prudence, you better get here quick, he looks dead on his feet.
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[Filter: Private]

It's different this year.

It starts the same as it does every year. Men pacing around the house or the village, waiting for when their women ... or partners are ready so they can get around to the point of the entire day. And then eventually, they pair off, and sometimes there is a surprise, an unexpected gift or, well, unexpected absence of a gift that makes the day memorable.

But it's different when the woman you want to see emerge from the kitchens is half a world away. It feels like I've been robbed, and isn't that ridiculous. It's just a day that comes every year with a tradition that is so old that no one knows how it started. But I do feel robbed, as if I'm missing a chance to show her that we can be part of this, that writing is a poor substitute for how I want to be a part of this day with her.

[Filter: Amaeyra]

Happy Rose Day.
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[Filter: Private]

It's jarring to think that we'll be celebrating something as frivolous as Rose Day in a village plagued by human-like monsters and has its inhabitants regularly go missing at the behest of a dragon who can transform into a woman. She's toying with us.

I think I've come to understand why the rest of the villagers so deeply deny what is happening here. What can they do? If they leave, where can they go? Why should they be the ones to go? The more I think about it, the more I don't want to let Searlait win.

[Filter: Kail]

So, what are you doing for Rose Day?
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[Filter: Faith]

I gather that your mouth now says what your mind wishes it to say? You're being honest about that, aren't you?
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[Filter: Those in Baethan, excluding Faith]

I think it's fair to say, now that enough time has passed, what we're all suspecting.

Faith is not herself. I've thought many unkind things about her over the years, but I've never thought she was lacking in empathy. Now she's paranoid. She's agitated and talking constantly about leaving, despite us not knowing where to go next. Has anyone noticed how much she talks about the sword? It's nearly always about the sword with her.

What do we do? What can we do?
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[Filter: Private]

... How many times is it now, where I realise that I'm caught in something much more complex than any normal man's mind can grasp? It's not just me, though, I have to remind myself of that. This isn't meant to be borne alone.

This has happened before. It happened before, and it failed, and so here we are.

[Filter: Non-Kilian Franelcrew, Aileen and Jon]

There's something I've been told that I should share with the rest of you.

Franel existed, before the unification of Dentoria. The Lord at that time went to Atsiria to seek support from Queen Azshara, bringing his family. Two sons and a daughter. One day, his children began acting strangely, as if they had become different people.

Sounds familiar, doesn't it?

[Filter: Amaeyra]

Happy birthday, for yesterday. I wish I could have said so earlier, but ... there was something I needed to think about. That, I think, would not place me in the best frame of mind to give you the attention you deserve. But I wanted to let you know that I didn't forget.
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[Filter: Private]

Dragons. The difficulty of solving this problem might actually be what he needs now.

[Filter: Hasten]

I know how Megam sank, and I need you to see that the same fate will not befall Dentoria.
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[Filter: Amaeyra]

We arrived at our destination a week or so ago, and I was right to dread what we might find there. The villagers seem to have been driven to murder each other, and those who survive keep themselves locked away. Even the family who rules this village have been affected. The de facto leader, at least, is surprisingly helpful, for a Kilian, I think because she realises that it'll be easier for everyone if we just get what we came for. If only our search was that easy, but for now, we're taking some time to celebrate the Festival. It might help the village if there was something to bring them together, and to be frank, I'm looking forward to having my mind on something as trivial as presents to buy.

I hope you have not tired yourself out in preparing for the Festival and for the birth of Felicia's child. Hasten would be home now, wouldn't he? Both for the Festival and the birth?
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[Filter: Private]

It occurs to me that there is a great deal I've learned in the past month that I have not told Amaeyra. I'm not sure what to share, and what she should know. How Megam sank, and how the seals in Sarrca and Franel could doom Dentoria to the same fate is something someone in Dentoria ought to know, but what she can do with that information ... if I tell Hasten, I have an obligation to tell him how to fix those seals if they are indeed breaking, give him the resources. Then again, Kilians tried to fix the Megami seal, and look how that ended up.

Perhaps I just feel the need to tell her something because I miss her and it will give me something to say. I miss her. I miss hearing her voice. I miss feeling her hand. I miss seeing the way her smile casts her face alight. Dragons, I'm a grown man of thirty three and I sound like a lovesick idiot. But it is easier, having ... having something to return to. Someone who wants you to come back. It makes every day I have to spend travelling through this forest more bearable.

[Filter: Amaeyra]

We are about a week or so away from our next destination. It's a small village, an insular community, as all villages in Kilia seem to be. We were fortunate enough to be acquainted with some people from that village, so that may be easier to find what we need than it would be otherwise. They have journals. Isn't that a coincidence? Though I think it's less coincidence and more a move from a chessmaster who is covering up his half of the board.

I hope you're well. I hope you have found the cause you have been looking for. I hope Hasten hasn't driven himself to the ground and given you another person to nurse.

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Jun. 19th, 2014 10:26 am
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[Filter: Franelcrew]

It's been five days since we last heard from the other group, and considering where we left off, I hope you'll excuse us for being very concerned about your silence. Is everything Are all of you are still on your way there? Are all of you still tied together? How far are you to the manor?

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Jun. 15th, 2014 10:21 pm
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[Filter: Private]

I don't know was the worst part of this week. Perhaps it was the part where I watched my brother and sister lose touch of what was real and what was not. Perhaps it was knowing that I would be so much worse to be in their place, that I am relieved the forest is not picking at my weakest parts ... and yet a little part of me wishes that I was there, so I could see what I long to see the most. Father. Mother. Amaeyra. The forest would have found me easy prey, and I hate knowing that is true.

Or is the worst part yet to come, the chance that I have ... we have put them through all that for nothing?

[Filter: Public]

I suppose you have not yet found any sign of your friend, Nessa? No word from her family?

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Apr. 21st, 2014 12:34 pm
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[Filter: Franelcrew]

In short: we met all of them, save for Dian, Fionn and Ethniu. Actually, there was also another girl, who did not speak, and I have a suspicion about who she is, but I think Celeste would know better.

They were all stunningly obtuse, as one would expect. The only answer we received was about the plan, which they claimed that we would not understand, and to be frank, we did not. But what they said ... the plan was to create a prison, and that prison was the negative space between the world split in half. In order to maintain the prison, they required seals with souls keyed in them. Seven seals, they said, with one an anchor to control the others. I'm sure that if I missed a detail that the others can help. And that hopefully, it will make more sense to someone who does understand magical theory.

Then, they left us a task that we must complete by the next Moon Festival, and when we complete it, apparently, they will actually answer our questions. The said that we weren't ready until we did this. They want the four jewels of the ... aesdana. I think that's what Danu called them. She wants - and I know I'll have the spelling of this wrong because that is the way with most foreigners and Kilian words - the kairé, sleg, lea fall, and claydeb soaig brought to the Citadel. That is how we will prove ourselves.

That is ... wait, there is one last thing. They didn't know what happened to Fionn before he died. I think that was the question they answered. Kail fired off four or five in a row just as they were leaving, so who knows, that answer could be for all of them. Not at all comforting, is it?

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Apr. 3rd, 2014 12:29 pm
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[Filter: Amaeyra]

We're about to cross the river into Kilia.

It's strange, isn't it? There's been so much upheaval in the world while we've just quietly made our way here. Without incident. Do you believe that the Dragons have come to us and been made flesh? That they brought a storm from Keirnan to Lucre? I have seen and experienced some unbelievable things in the past nine years, but gods being real is a possibility I'm inclined to deal with some skepticism. But if they truly are real, why are they here? Why now?

But I suppose all of that will hardly matter to me once we're in Kilia. So little comes in and out of that place. Atsiria, Megam, Korin, Hanalan, Kanemoria, those countries are known. Their histories are taught, and Dentoria sends and receives diplomats and envoys, but Kilia ... I'm not sure if the Kilians I can trust are reluctant to share something of their homeland because of sheer unwillingness, a need to maintain secrecy or because they don't know any more than I do. It will be ... an interesting place. After staying in places so familiar to me for half a year, I will have to get used to being a foreigner again.

In any case, I know you will worry, and I know that there is little I can do to ease them. But I will try to write more than I have been, now that we will be crossing into the border of a country where you might not hear much of us.

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Sep. 25th, 2013 10:27 am
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So, is everyone enjoying the party? If you haven't been outside, the gardens are quite beautiful, especially impressive for this time of year, I'm told. And there's a water cascade you can climb, if you don't mind getting wet. It's quite an marvel in engineering, and it won't be running during the winter, so now would be the latest yo would see it running.

As for the food, feel free to have all you can. It'll only go to waste otherwise, and I don't think we will be eating like this for quite some time.
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